Tuesday, November 22
I'd post a proper entry tonight; only I've got to wake up at 5 tomorrow morning to get to camp by 6.
Monday, November 21
My first day at the new camp was alright actually, until I got onto the MRT home. I started thinking about how much different my route to and from camp was, and what it would be like if the other guy had been transferred over instead of me. He lives very near camp, and I had to take three buses to get to camp today. Go figure.
But I guess I shouldn't complain. It's not like I'm being flogged to death there... but it would be good if I were able to stay on at my old camp. I thought that after BMT recourse, I would remain there until ORD. I was wrong, I suppose. But that's life, isn't it? You deal with change, and move on. Well, at least I'm not getting depressed about the new environment, not yet maybe. Previously, everytime I went to a new camp, I'd go through this phase of being really upset about everything. Hope that doesn't happen again.
I used to feel so terrible about everything in NS in the past, and at one point I realised that going for medical appointments, counselling sessions and reporting sick so many times was one of the reasons why. It's a vicious cycle really: you hate it, so you try to escape it; the more you do these things, the worse you feel about it. When I stopped, it got a lot better. I think I owe it to the BMT recourse; it really opened me up and changed my thinking. Perhaps I should have gone through with it the first time around, but thinking about it, I realise I would never change a thing. If I did, I'd never have met those wonderful guys in the recourse. Heh... you know who you are... and I realise that most probably only one of you is reading this. Oh well.
I think my countdown has begun...
But I guess I shouldn't complain. It's not like I'm being flogged to death there... but it would be good if I were able to stay on at my old camp. I thought that after BMT recourse, I would remain there until ORD. I was wrong, I suppose. But that's life, isn't it? You deal with change, and move on. Well, at least I'm not getting depressed about the new environment, not yet maybe. Previously, everytime I went to a new camp, I'd go through this phase of being really upset about everything. Hope that doesn't happen again.
I used to feel so terrible about everything in NS in the past, and at one point I realised that going for medical appointments, counselling sessions and reporting sick so many times was one of the reasons why. It's a vicious cycle really: you hate it, so you try to escape it; the more you do these things, the worse you feel about it. When I stopped, it got a lot better. I think I owe it to the BMT recourse; it really opened me up and changed my thinking. Perhaps I should have gone through with it the first time around, but thinking about it, I realise I would never change a thing. If I did, I'd never have met those wonderful guys in the recourse. Heh... you know who you are... and I realise that most probably only one of you is reading this. Oh well.
I think my countdown has begun...
Sunday, November 20
Weekend's coming to an end... Starting tomorrow I'll be reporting to a different camp. It's tough, 'cause I don't deal well with change. Even so, this shift will be good; someone at my current camp kinda really hates me... It's always awkward silence... So with me going over to the other side, it'll be better. I'll still see him from time to time though, due to the fact that we're under the same establishment.
Well, I suppose tomorrow starts a new chapter of my life in NS. It's the final seven months, so I'm hoping things will go by really fast, and that maybe life will take a turn for the better. I really can't ask for more right now though, the pay's good, job should be pretty alright, which is more than I can say for some of my other friends serving NS. Sorry guys...
On another note, my 'Friends' DVD collection is finally complete, with the shipment coming in yesterday. I've watched the first three episodes of Season 10 already, and it's really enjoyable to watch them since I haven't seen almost the whole season yet. I started watching 'Friends' seriously just after my first, failed BMT, in June 2004, with two full years to go in NS. So much has changed since then; I've already completed the BMT recourse, and my job which starts tomorrow should be permanent till I ORD. I've grown to love these six characters in so many ways, and it feels as if they're my friends too. You people must be laughing at me now for not having seen the end of 'Friends' when it's already been over for over a year, but I say, as long as I get to watch it all, I'm happy.
This has been a rather introspective post, no?
Well, I suppose tomorrow starts a new chapter of my life in NS. It's the final seven months, so I'm hoping things will go by really fast, and that maybe life will take a turn for the better. I really can't ask for more right now though, the pay's good, job should be pretty alright, which is more than I can say for some of my other friends serving NS. Sorry guys...
On another note, my 'Friends' DVD collection is finally complete, with the shipment coming in yesterday. I've watched the first three episodes of Season 10 already, and it's really enjoyable to watch them since I haven't seen almost the whole season yet. I started watching 'Friends' seriously just after my first, failed BMT, in June 2004, with two full years to go in NS. So much has changed since then; I've already completed the BMT recourse, and my job which starts tomorrow should be permanent till I ORD. I've grown to love these six characters in so many ways, and it feels as if they're my friends too. You people must be laughing at me now for not having seen the end of 'Friends' when it's already been over for over a year, but I say, as long as I get to watch it all, I'm happy.
This has been a rather introspective post, no?
