Sense of self-worth right now, is low. Since I went back to my current camp on Monday, everything seems to take on a mundane feel. Everyday is just like the day before, nothing varies. It's another 9 months before I leave full-time National Service, so I wonder if this is going to be the way for the rest of my National Service time.
I really want to be doing something worthwhile in this time. Maybe that's why I started writing my story, though even that's not going very well these days. Recently I've come to realise that my skills as an artist are pretty lacking; my speech is unintelligible to those who don't know me well enough. I'm also pretty anti-social, and keep to myself in groups I'm unfamiliar with. What is wrong with me?
I'm not really sad; I just want to make a change. I want to become better, but where do I start?
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