read my mind

Monday, July 17

Strangely, I'm feeling very emotionally vulnerable these days. I don't really know why either. Maybe it's 'cause I'm alone at home these days, with no one for company. Your mind just wanders, and you just think about stuff.

I know I've got reasons to smile and be happy, but at the moment I just don't feel like they matter. I guess I don't make much sense now, but I hope I feel better soon.

I don't know why, but I find that when I listen to happy songs, I tend to feel worse. When I'm feeling low, I ask myself why I can't just be happy and pick myself up, and end up feeling even worse simply because I'm unable to make myself feel better. Is this irony? You tell me.